There's a beautiful sky tonight..

heyyy :)

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 05:44:13 GMT

I definitely need to update this more often.
And my friends need to get livejournals. Now.

So today was excruciatingly boring. But, at least it's vacation. (Just 5 days off from school is a pretty lame vacation, I know. But hey, it's still 5 days of no school.) So yay to that.

I've been hanging out with Ariana so much lately. I looove her. But she's been going through a pretty rough time lately, I hope things get better for you babe. <3 Cheer up.

On the other hand, Sean's been handling things so well lately, even after last week and all. I'm so proud of my boy. You don't need that bastard, right? Haha, damn right. Last night Sean & I went to the movies, had a good time, and then walked over to the store after. We went down this really scary alleyway-road-thingy and heard creepy noises and got wicked scared though, haha. It was too fun.

Jaccck. You suck. It's understandable though, and I'm sorry.
I love you kiddo.

All I have to say is... me and Mike :)

Pete. I'm over the whole jealousy deal.. at least for now, haha. We actually work pretty damn well as just friends. I like it. :)

I'm gonna go. This past week has been full of friends and fun, but I'm too lazy to write about it all.

I got a digital camera and hopefully I will be doing a picture post soon. We'll see.

Adios <3

"You know, we don't stand a chance.."

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 22:29:26 GMT

Heyyy.. long time no update.
Let's see, all I can really update on is the past two weekends, because that's all I can remember..

Last Friday I hung out with Ariana and Jack at the mall, it was a good time.. I love those two <3. Then on Saturday I went over Ariana's house and we watched a couple movies, had some laughs, and then Jack joined us and it got even better. It was also a fun time. Then on Sunday I went back to Ariana's (can't get enough of that girl!) and we were supposed to do homework, but we're lazy and we didn't. We ended up watching TV and listening to great music and dancing like losers. And we made a card for our favorite teacher, who's leaving us on Monday :(

This Friday I hung out with Sean, and we went to Applebees. They gave me some really nasty food but I had a good time anyway. We went for a walk in the rain and then to our favorite place.. the grocery store!! haha, I love that boy.

Last night I got a call from Dan, and he asked me to come meet up with him to celebrate his birthday.. that old man. So Ariana picked me up and we met up with Dan, Alicia, Martin, and Andrew. After like a friggin hour we finally found a place to eat that wasn't completely packed. Unfortunately.. that place was Applebees. Haha, it was actually good this time though. Martin was actually pretty cool, I was surprised that I didn't completely hate him. But anyways, about half way into dinner Dave came and joined us, then we all rode to the bowling place. Dave drove me, Ariana, and Andrew.. and it took us about an hour to get there, we got soo lost. Hahaha it was pretty funny. But once we got there, Alicia and Martin had to leave because it was pretty late. So Dave, Dan, Andrew, Ariana, and I went bowling. Oh man, I love them all so much, it was a good time.

Dave is the coolest ever. I <3 his car. I'm going to marry him :)

But Pete.. oh boy. I don't ever know what to think about this kid. He's great, but this whole thing with Carolyn is ridiculous. She isn't cool at all - I was so wrong. She is such a bitch, especially to him. And he lets her get away with it and walk all over him, probably just because she's pretty and available. I hate it. And I let him know how I felt about it, and maybe I shouldn't have. But whyyy does he let her do this? He deserves so much more.

I actually don't have work to do tonight.. that's a first. Well, I guess I could do some math, but no way.

"I could kill you, sure;
But I could only make you cry with these words.."

tell me you don't miss these brown eyes

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 03:45:27 GMT

Hmm.. update time. Let's see, the beach last weekend was a lot of fun. I love those guys. It was a blast.. I just wish it could've lasted longer.

School started yesterday. It's okay I guess. I'm lucky to have almost every class with Sean, Ariana, and Dan. Being with them should help reduce the lethal boringness of all my classes. God, I really don't know if I can handle doing this stupid shit every friggin day for the rest of the year. Ugh, it's not gonna be fun. Or easy.

Pete <3... I miss him. I love him. I don't know what to think about him. He is so incredibly sweet.. and I love everything about him.. and I wish he was here. But despite the fact that I have so many strong feelings for him, and that I honestly can't see myself feeling this way about anyone else anytime soon.. I think I need to move on. Maybe not just yet - but soon. I don't want to.. at all.. but I can't hang onto this forever. We are inevitably going our separate ways and I don't really see how things could work out.

The most beautiful boy I have ever seen sits next to me in homeroom :) ..I just wanted to go up to him and take a picture. Haha. I think his name is Eric.

I saw Garrett today for the first time in forever. Aww, he's the cutest. I missed that boy.

Sammy might be pregnant. Hmm. I don't know how to react to that.

P.S. James.. I'm so sorry about what happened, but I promise everything will be okay. If anything, this is an experience to learn from and I hope you can make the best of it. If you ever need anything.. I'm here. <33

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Sat, 28 Aug 2004 05:28:53 GMT

I am so stressed right now.

I have been working on my biology the WHOLE frickin day, and I'm not even finished.. I also have to do both of my history reports, and work on english. Shoot me.. please. School is creeping up on me way too fast.

I am worried about other things as well.

Pete left yesterday for college. I already miss him. Aww, I felt bad for him, he was so nervous and depressed. He confuses the hell out of me though.. why does he have to be so frustrating? He didn't talk to me at all today. Sometimes he'll act like he really likes me, and the next day he won't. It's depressing. I mean, it's not like we're together or anything.. but I still can't stand it when he mentions other girls. Like that whole thing with Carolyn (even though she's pretty cool).. and now Kayley. Who the hell is KAYLEY? haha, I'm sure she's nice.. but that doesn't change that fact that I want all her hair to fall out. Juuuust kidding.

I like this kid way too much for my own damn good.

Anyways, tomorrow I have to get up super duper early to go down to the beach. Last time for the summer. Kate, Lynn, Ricky, Rory, Colleen, and Bobby are all coming.. so it should be a fun time. Ugh, that means I'm only getting a few hours of sleep tonight though. I have been so sleep-deprived lately it's ridiculous. Oh well.

I finally talked to Dan again :)

I miss my dearest Sean, even though I just saw him. And the lovely Ariana.. who I haven't hung out with in wayyyy too long. I don't know, she seems so different lately. Apparently she's too busy with all her cool new friends to hang out with me and Sean anymore..

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Fri, 27 Aug 2004 05:47:17 GMT

So she says, "Everyone's going to the party. Won't you come if I come with a friend for your friend? I'd be so pleased to see you out of the classroom, wearing the smile that I'll bring you. I was hoping to learn a few things, like: do you, do you like dishing the dirt on the whole class? Or talking a big smack? Or playing the fool? Or wearing all of the latest fashions? Or bucking the new trends? Or wearing your old threads? Or if you like coffee in the evening? These are a few things that I'd like to know, that I'd like to know."

So I say, "I've been scheduled to work but I'll call in. And my friend isn't busy, he'd be happy to join me. And maybe my friend and your friend will hit it off. Or maybe.. we will."

I'm dying to know: do you, do you like dreaming of things so impossible? Or only the practical? Or ever the wild? Or waiting through all your bad, bad days just to end them with someone you care about? Or do you like making out? And long drives, and brown eyes, and guys that just don't quite fit in? Yeah, do you like them?

"So yes, I'll see you there."

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 07:34:01 GMT

There's plenty of time left tonight; I promised I'd have you home before daylight. 'Cause we do the best we can in a small town, act like big city kids when the sun goes down.

But if it's not too late for coffee, I could be at your place in ten. We'll hit that all night diner, and then.. we'll see.

There's so many things I have to say, and I'd stay up all night to hear about your day. 'Cause we do the best we can in a small town, act like kids in love when the sun goes down.

But if it's not too late for coffee, I could be at your place in ten. We'll hit that all night diner, and then.. we'll see.

There's a love that transcends all that we've known of ourselves, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come. Well, it's got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come.

Oh, if it's not too late for coffee, I could be at your place in ten. We'll hit that all night diner, and then.. we'll see.

There's a love that transcends all that we've known of ourselves, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come. Well, it's got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come. Well, it's got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come.

There's a love that transcends all that we've known of ourselves, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come. Well, it's got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come. Well, it's got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell, and then I'll wait for it to come. I'll wait for it to come.

hey

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 03:33:52 GMT

There's a beautiful sky tonight, and if you were by my side then we could share this, but you're gone. So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars, 'cause nothing matters anymore.

If I could only see you now for about an hour, maybe just a minute.. just to ask what he's got that I don't have. Is it his brown eyes? I know blue eyes get boring, but I'll wear dark glasses all the time. And hey, if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes.

If I could only see you now for about an hour, maybe just a minute.. just to ask what he's got that I don't have. Is it his brown eyes? Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you and now you put me through hell. You break me up, yeah.

I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart. Why am I so pathetic? I don't get it, why you won't return my calls. Can't you look at me once? And please, if you got a minute, enjoy this lonely sky with me. It'll swallow us whole if we only let it.

If I could only see you now for about an hour, maybe just a minute.. just to ask what he's got that I don't have. Is it his brown eyes? Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you, yeah. Now you put me through hell. You break me up, yeah. If this sky's going to eat us, then I'd like to be digested into a million pieces with you. I'd love to be scattered to hell with you, to hell with you.

To hell with you.